You know what it's like to fall out of love of someone?
No, i bet many don't. Precisely.
Why bothering do that?
just let everything fall into place
as i've told so many ppl
may sound like im such a snob ,but,
What is yours,is yours,it'll come back eventually if it's meant to be yours
No?
anyways,dats what i think.

so tightly griped and nearly suffocates frm anxiety.nervousness. STRESS and ultimately the pressure to do well and not ppl's expectations fall down down down into da deep pit.

dey say we live for ourselves
but when we love others
dey hv expectations for us
so when dis happends
wouldnt we hv great obligations
as if dey're entirely natural phenomenas
to NOT let dem down?
of course we do.
and that's da tiring part

sometimes you're just so damntired and sick
but what can u do
yes,u hv endless choices ,possibilities and bla bla bla in life
in da end mostly
u'd ended up pushed n cornered
and what choice does dat leave you now?

i ask you that.
life's a game
truly it is.

now u see that now u don't
it;s so unpredictable dats it's terrifying.
really.
life's a reward too!
you see da divinity of life and how it's magnificently created
one of da lietral ways is yes, through biology.
HAH

thank heavens very few or almost none of my friends or ppl out there views my blog
cause i rarely update it
andd when i do
it's pretty boring and depressing and unillustrative,unlike most of my friends's blogs
so colourful and attractive
i love deir blgs too
reckon im gonna hugely renovate mine after spm!
oh and wish me luck for da mock A.K.A trial
da year when ur facing a public exam?
it's full of insanity.
u'd go CRAZY i tell you
like literally.

Funny isn't it how i treasure n cldnt live without my buddies n
family

so many channels to express and communicate
well at least, to let ppl noe how i feel n all
i chose dis very channel.
CAUSE nobody or very few ppl would judge me here
yes it;'s way too public to vent out unwanted thoughts,emotions and stuff
but den u cn get unfathomable and express everything subtly
however you like without facing anyone,
that is, if ur blog is unpopular =D
a great perk of having a unpopular blog btw. ahaha

hmms
to strive hard you just gotta hv a steel will
like really really steely
i've just known that myself ==
soo so hard to resist temptations
mayb i understand y Eve ate that forbidden apple

you've just got to rely on urself when it comes to decisions
feelings
emotions
no matter hw much a person or even God can help
in the end,whos gonna do da do?
YOU.
so get going,deal with it and be proud cas u did what u thought was right and it makes you happy,which is da most important thing.
for ur future too.
:)

i feel so much released now
ahhh
cheerio! =)

i Thought maybe u'd really understand and bear with me
But
it's Human Nature
if i were you, i wld hv threw a bigger fit.


U said we arent like we used to be anymore
I say otherwise.
Though it's just so hard , i nvr said much because all of these,
which looks 2 times riskier den it look on da surface..
You are the one who's da playmaker in making me feel it's all definitely worth it.
Nw, im beginning to doubt a lil..
I don't know.
A simple yet utterly complicated phrase that so many human all around dis world say.

Hope is what keep us going,No?
I can only stand here,helpless,really helpless
i cnt cheer u up
i cnt unwind and unscrew up my encapsuled freedom for us
i cn do nothing except
for Believing.
Sounds corny or somethg like that
i can Only hope that,

Everything's gonna be okay.
The wave has high and low tide seasons too.
High tides must rush by quickly for i cldnt stand reality high tides..
pls refrain frm jz swinging ur dis new and unpredictable mood towards me
without a single warning. i think i deserve at least a indication or somethg frm u when u feel or think like that.

Not leaving me alone here
Guessing, Torturing myself with thoughts of me as da one who caused all dese unhappiness and kip asking n wanting to noe what on Earth is going on
and when u say Nothing la..
THATS'S da WORST part.
i never felt more helpless and lost and dejected..
you know exactly hw i feel when i mean that,
i am so scared of da horrifically real possibilities that might occur
aldo it might seem to be exagerrating but it is a Huge, HUGE deal . for me.


just pls...
don't leave me here alone or in the dark to solve everythg
be with me together to go through this
we can do it :)
faith.

i am sooo envious! either is he.

u Two are damn lucky ducks.. get to be together to ur heart's content. go travelling together when im forbidden to..


can only sigh...
cnt even express it directly here. da torture..
while i was wtching a korean drama,thr came a scene whr da starring stars r missing each other..
unconsciously,my chest felt stuck and before i even know whats going on, my eyes r moist and red.

IMY so so much.
i've nvr ever tried to deny that :)


encapsuled in my parents's world
waiting to burst free
glorious and flying..
That Day will Come.

i wldnt let history repeat itself in future for future generations.
hv owas swore that
cant stand my so-limited freedom and all.
ARGH!

funny how i cn be so volatile and be happy n smiley da nxt second
den i'd breakdown completely b4 me myself even knowing,
all i can say is
crying is not a sign of weakness
NO MATTER what ppl anywhr and anyone who said it
i think otherwise.

u cry to release
so that dose pent-up feelings,emotions cn all break through, gush out wholesomely frm da tortured soul and heart
or so thats what i feel.

ppl,sometimes when u see someone staring into da space or air or somethg or ntg in particular
you noe dat person is thinking deeply
Not being what im-emo stuff and unhappy
sometimes,
we're just Thinking..
a gazillion stuff running thru our mind
willingly,unwillingly...

*deep breath*
well
i believe and hav faith in God
that everythg has its silver lining
be grateful
what i owas say.

Go :)